the needs we know and not know

So I have spoken with G* and I am to begin the papers
Today; it is much sooner than expected, but just so.
The half of the year next year a blank slate now for a time.
Even when the expected comes, it looms and the heart
Shivers knowing of no certainties. A number of places

At the tip of the tongue the cosmos to decide. It says
Five years. The leap of trust must we do.
Even for the uncertain, there is such a thing as faith.